如果你感到懷才不遇，卻沒有努力爭取改變的機會，以被動哀怨的心態過每一天，最後該怪誰？

前幾天看到一篇訪問，很記得這個quote: "If you look around the room and you’re the smartest person in the room, then you’re in the wrong room."

我明白，機緣也很重要。但是，一個人的性格判斷其交際關係、生活狀態，職業選擇以及創業成敗等等...

在抱怨之前，請先自我評估吧。

一個人的品德跟學歷沒有必然關係，但跟家教肯定有關係。看你嘴那麼賤，連基本專重都不會，可以想像你爸媽浪費了多少時間在你身上。

I'm drained. But there's no time to complain.

記得還沒有跟男友一起的時侯，他問我擇偶條件是甚麼。我說一定要有責任心，上進，不要凡事take the easy way out. 他笑說你以為你在請員工呀？ 現在回想起，這種種要求確是很不浪漫，但跟work ethics是密不可分的。我很認同「世上最重要的不是愛，而是責任心」這句話--在談你有多愛一個人前，先看你有沒有盡好情人的責任（當然，我在這方面還需要很大的努力！）而當一個人懷著明天會比今天進步的信念，這是一種魅力。

還有，以前聽到女生說「我只希望男友是個好人」時我會番白眼，想說這也好列入範圍內？但祇從轉校後，我體會到找一個心地好的人是多麼難的一件事。

i think i read too much 1984//handmaid's tale//a brave new world...

Had a dream about living in a totalitarian society, where every sentence you speak is immediately decode to those who are governing and every sign (albeit how minor) of disagreement will lead you to punishment...

«贖罪» 湊佳苗

超想看！

risk premium, car won't start, 2000-words essay, 2 projects, 2 finals

我依家除佐粗口之外咩都唔識講

it's one of the days where I keep freaking out about my weight while i'm trying to cut down my meals..

i'm not joking, i went to the bathroom to weigh myself every time before i consider eating something and this is driving me crazy

這幾天不停loop的歌

It's frightening how much I see myself in you sometimes.

The same competitiveness, the impatience, the stubbornness to take the hard way, the drive for the good & better...

And I see our weaknesses clearer than ever, how one word blurted out of anger could devastate a relationship, how easily we could detach from those who lost their moral compass, albeit how intimate the relationship had been...

The conflicts and mishandling of relationships I had here really pushed me to be a person that I've never envisioned myself to become. I'll admit that in some instances, the push gave me more protection and courage to uphold my values, but sometimes I see myself going too far.

I hope I'll be able to preserve an untainted conscience and ambition along the way.

Every time I see people publicizing their loss of motivation or patience to continue their path, I want to shake them and remind them of their initial goal.

The question is not whether you can settle for less, but whether those who loved you and gave what you have today could do so.

So take on the pain and pressure– as long as there is a meaning to it.

DC touchdown

Pictures will do:)

Went to the Museum of Natural Sciences on the first day we arrived and the deep ocean exhibit is really intriguing!!! I found the root of tabby's aggressiveness :p I also like the awkward bend of the giraffe as it is drinking water.

Planning to go to the Spy Museum today!

And I played around with the clone camera! It's a really failed attempt but it was enough to make my brother pissed since I kept forcing him to take pictures with me!

Lastly the Andy Warhol eyeshadow palette was all i got for thanksgiving! I don't actually wanna use it up since it's too pretty!

More to come..

也許真的瘋了

我真的是一個自虐狂。

明知自己最怕finance,明知自己較內向，而business journalism 是要求學生非常的積極地參與討論...明知我可以輕輕鬆鬆地過下個學期...

我居然逼自己面對這一切。

就好像第一次叫我做man on the street interview一樣， 我整個慌起來，覺得approach路人還要被拒絕或看臉色真的很尷尬。但久而久之，開始習慣被拒絕，面皮也厚了，反而很樂意做這種interview.

我知道，這是一個很難得的機會。為了你，為了儘快變得financially independent，我會熬下去。

我相信太易放棄沒意思。

officially a business journalism major ;D

畏懼、無助、失望、悲痛、懊悔......通通無所遁形

不是每一句對不起都能換來一句沒關係。

all boundaries are conventions

Cloud Atlas is a wonderful film. It reflects the humanity that survives different eras, different races and different social boundaries. We have to do what we cannot do, in order to put an end to abusive power and tell the truth, despite the cost and challenges to do so. It also explores the connectivity between people. As Somni-451, a human fabricant in the story, said, “Our lives are not our own. From womb to tomb, we are bound to others. Past and present. And by each crime, and every kindness, we birth our future.”

if you prefer deceit over honesty

有時候不坦然相對比較好。一忍不住拆穿某某的面具，他連當初辛苦建立的表象都放棄了，甚麼情意結，甚麼情面，通通像泡泡一樣刺穿了。

a rather cynical thought

"When one is in love, one always begins by deceiving one's self, and one always ends by deceiving others. That is what the world calls a romance."– Oscar Wilde

daebak!

Reesenews has picked up my group's political ad assessment! Check it out: http://whichwaync.com/2012/11/02/op-ed-analyzing-political-ads-using-the-tares-test/

我熱愛財經嗎？並不。我會想每天花八個小時去採訪和寫有關經濟的新聞嗎？未必。


我只是知道，這條路可以支撐自己的生計，也能夠證明我的能力。


希望沒走錯。

fighting!

當你感到自己處處碰壁，無論工作、愛情或交朋結友都沒有一件順心的時候，千萬不要放棄。

往往熬過那個關卡，就會帶來更好的風景。

我說真的– 你要擁有前所未有的東西，就得做你從來沒有試過的事。

honestly

it's okay to offer a hand. it's an ethical obligation to help those in need.

BUT is it okay to take that for granted? at least express a LITTLE gratitude?


if your attitude to those who helped you shows your appreciation, then you'll not only pay the most basic respect, but also make others feel willing to help you again.

don't even think that getting someone's assistance is their obligation just because you guys are close. because this is the very moment when they'll start distancing from you, and you'll know where you stand.

change

So, the town of Carrboro just voted to ban the prior convictions for felonies and misdemeanors box from job applications for town employment.

Interesting that the mayor thinks people change...

It leads to a question which I was completely on the flip side with my friend: do people really change? Or do we merely exhibit less of what people disapprove of and adjust ourselves for different social groups?

I used to think that people change, as a vital part of growing up, being involved in conflicts and as a result of punishment. But in these few years, it became increasingly a "wishful thinking" for me that people would change...when it's so hard to step out of your usual practices (which you're already so comfortable with) unless you're obligated to forgo them.

backkk

頹廢完一輪，今天要重拾讀書，讀書，讀書的日子了

Slippery slope

這幾天忘著考試和報紙的事情，都沒有空讀其他書。

東野圭吾的「幻夜」是我在商務書局買的。因為愛看推理小說，又差不多看過所有松本清張的書，所以想試讀其他作者的作品。

記得康橋曾經推薦東野圭吾的白夜行，故事大綱是很吸引的。反正一切有關人性的惡意，或呈現強烈的社會寫真，我都很感興趣。

而幻夜深深吸引我的，是它的內文摘錄：

「為甚麼呢？美冬-

為甚麼背叛我？為甚麼殺了我的靈魂？是你說我們沒有白天的，是你說永遠都是黑夜的，是你說我們要在夜裡活下去的。

如果那樣還算好。如果是真正的夜還算好。但你卻連那都不願給我。你給我的一切，全是幻影。」

就是因為看了這麼絕望，無助的直白，我才買了這本書。很多推理小說都是建立在死亡上，但在東野圭吾所關注的，是超越了可以觸碰的死亡---靈魂的死亡。

故事發生於一九九五年，阪神大地震。雅也因貪求那四百萬元的保險金而殺害舅舅。然而，他的罪行卻被一名女子當場目擊。女子自稱新海美冬。

美冬並沒有報警。她選了那一刻-在極度恐慌和混亂包圍之下- 建立一個重生的機會。

她跟雅也到東京展開新生活。憑著其美貌、肉體與手腕魅惑男性，一步步構造她的上流夢想帝國...

也許東野圭吾想凸顯的是, 一個平凡女子想要在這絕望，社會低迷的狀況往上爬，是需要放下所有道德觀念。

她用盡所有方法去抹殺自己的過去， 除掉了每一個可能供給她過去的線索的人。然而幫她減少障礙的，是雅也。她計劃了完美的手段，而他執行所有骯髒的事。明知他只是美冬的傀儡，但卻無法抽離，只因她承諾過這種生存之道才能帶給他們幸福。

幸福，是多麼模糊。

當一個人的過去太過骯髒齷齪，開始justify 邪惡的手段能帶來美好的將來，是無可避免的話，那就形成了slippery slope.

所謂slippery slope是指'once you committed a sin, the next one comes easier.' 以更大更多的污點去掩蓋以前的污點，因而惡性循環。

幻夜是一本很值得深究的書：如果你擁有的一切突然被全面滅絕，而你已經沒有甚麼可以失去，你會捉緊這個重生的機會嗎？

每個人都有一些厭惡自己人生或想跟別人交換身份的時刻吧。要在社會動蕩下想著如何重新定向，重獲希望，亦是引發犯罪的強大執念。

counting down to san fran!!!!

我今晚實訓ng jeuk覺!!!!!

haa

人真的好矛盾。

跟一群人一起的時候就想逃離到一個私人空間，獨自在家的時候卻想湊熱鬧；
戀愛時會想像自己單身有多好，單身時卻想有個人陪陪


這幾天忘得要死，大概要摺埋直至fall break才能瘋狂一下。

倒數去San Fran 還有3天 :)

我已經不能執意走記者這條路了。發生那麼多預料不到的事，需要付出大量的時間及金錢–當記者，是不可能給我這些資源的。

happy moon day

今天我想起村上春樹的1Q84–天空掛着一大一小两個月亮的世界。男主角天吾在公園溜滑梯上面，看到天空上的兩個月亮，而女主角青豆此時就藏身於對著公園的一座建築物裡。他們未曾相遇，卻終於置身於「同一個世界」裡。

兩個月亮的世界代表現實上不存在的世界，但在村上春樹的筆下，所有離奇的現象都可以用現實的方式去解釋。

當我望著月亮的同時（其實在投射自己於那個不存在的世界裡！），我想...那個他也在看吧。這樣也是一種浪漫..是嗎？

Ah.

I just want to have something substantive and special written on my obituary.. That's why I prioritize work and success over relationships... Please please please. I don't wanna lead an ordinary life and have people remember me that way.

Just a thought...

Today's one of the days where I feel overwhelmed by the amount of reporting I have to do.

And I kept questioning myself, why did I have to choose such a challenging topic? Why did I have to exhaust myself in this way?

I ran into a few restaurants and got kicked out by some, when I expressed that I'm a student reporter and am working on a story about good restaurant models (in fact, wage theft is my focus).

I wanted to find out if restaurant workers earned above the minimum wage, got overtime pay... etc and verify that with the owner/ managers' responses.

Some managers were nice and allowed me to talk to their employees, but it's apparent that they're imposing pressure. From time to time, employees would exchange nervous glances with their bosses, or became so tensed up when their bosses walk over and 'listen.'

It's only normal to deflect responsibilities.
You might ask, who would confess that they exploited undocumented workers anyway? What's the point?

I know some of them are lying. But it's one way of raising consciousness. Customers should be able to distinguish which restaurants held their actions accountable, and that they're starting to think of the process behind a cheap meal.

So I really don't expect to go back to certain restaurants from now on. Some certainly hated me for asking such sensitive questions, but for the most part, I really don't want to eat something that's cooked by low-wage workers who have been exploited and isolated victims.

別再找藉口！

In my mind

My heart is pounding and I can't sleep.

No matter how much I occupied myself with work, every night ends up like this.

Stare into emptiness. Evaluate how I acted today. How others acted. Time passing. Opportunities fading. Regrets mounting. The good others did to me. The bad I did. Vice versa.. Balancing all those.

What screws me most is the picture
of how things should've turned out.

competing values...

It's interesting how Disney started creating cartoons for adults and carried propaganda content. And although this was released on 1943, the example used in this cartoon still holds true!

bb

constructing my own catastrophe

如果我還是這麼後知後覺

如果我還是這樣容忍你

如果我還是跟你笑著當沒事發生

我就沒有盡力保護自己，或斬斷所有可能傷害自己的機會

等於綁著雙手任你宰割

這已經是一種錯，還能怪誰

"As I see it, you're living with something that you keep hidden deep inside. Something heavy. To tell you the truth, I myself carry these things around inside. Heavy things. That is how I can see it in you."

The psychology of evil

Philip Zimbardo, who led the 1971 Stanford Prison Experiment, gave an interesting talk on the nature of good and evil. In relation to moral development, how do certain situations seduce ordinary people to perform actions that they recognize as immoral? If we all have the capacity for evil, why do some become a reality and some not?

How and why do the photographs of Abu Ghraib prisoners acquire emotional and moral relevance? Please share what you think of Zimbardo's arguments!

desensitized?

 Hollister Models Mock Asians at Opening of South Korea Store

When the A&F flagship store opened in Hong Kong, the media made fun of HK women who were crazy over a cluster of shirtless models during the opening. It always amuses me how brands like A&F and Hollister have such receptive audience in Asian countries, while most consumers were completely oblivious of the discriminatory practices of models in South Korea (not to mention past complaints on the company's discriminatory hiring practices). In Hong Kong, I found it a little disturbing that there is not a single Asian among the models, although most consumers cared more about the "All American look" than racial insensitivity. And so, the role of news media is crucial in educating the public about racial controversies and promoting discourse in the public square.

controversial bus ads story here

good day!

the most beautiful people are those who have a conscience and relentlessly pursue justice; those who do NOT justify an unjust mean for the "greater good."

sometimes i think that the greatest sin is not those who committed a crime but HOW they package themselves– to repeatedly claim that they are a better person than they actually are...and to obscure the pain they caused to others instead of acknowledging it.

xx

只清楚自己不想要的，卻不知道自己到底想要甚麼

好苦惱。怎樣也想不到feature story應該寫什麼。還有9283124709樣野未做...
***

I've been reading Corner Office of the NYT. The Q&A approach is easy to digest and relatively concise...especially when you're reading about successful entrepreneurs, I'd prefer reading this over a long, detailed profile story. Corner Office is, in a way giving a more honest depiction of what the CEO is like instead of painting a rosy picture.

But aside from writing about prominent figures, I'm much more interested in covering ordinary people– especially those who don't have a voice. I've heard about day laborers standing under intense heat near Jones Ferry Road, Carrboro (just few minutes from Chapel Hill), hoping that a construction truck would pass by and pick them up for a paid job– for a day. Most day laborers are immigrants, documented and undocumented alike.  And because of their lack of English skills, fear of immigrant operations and the yearning to earn a decent living,   these laborers are often tricked into working without being paid.

I can totally picture how worried (AND over reacting) my mom would be if I told her that I'm interested in this topic and I'm going to spend days talking with the day laborers so that I could get their side of the story (though I'd really need a translator...) But this is how it'd work.

First profile story running tomorrow!

there're certain kinds of behavior that you cannot get over with

我總是覺得，情意結會令人放下自己的標準。

明明有些行為是不能接受的，但想起某某對我的好，就會找各種理由出說服自己－他其實沒有那麼差，我也沒有那麼好。就當扯平吧。


或者人真的偏向相信美好的信念，就算幻想破滅，還是不想承認自己有多愚昧。

因為得知莫莫背後所作所為而顛倒自己對愛情及友情的期望，對所有東西都抱著懷疑的心態。

是難熬的。但其實生活就是不斷的跟陌生人熟起來，然後跟熟的人變得很陌生。

那些值得留在心中的人，我會狠狠的愛你們。

Let's put all our regrets aside and treat each other with honesty and good will. I hope you could continue doing what you're the best at despite our experience did not turn out the way we initially hoped for; and I truly wish that, whatever that was left undone or unfixed in our relationship, could be mended and fulfilled with your another half.

xx

there's nothing to lose

You can choose to doubt someone you've known for years, or believe in someone you've known for days. It's up to you and you have your own judgement, based on your experience, memories, and values.

有一天，我希望能夠好好地愛一個人。 想念他就要用盡所有渠道去讓他知道，不要單是說 I miss you... 不再徬徨，不再計算

question

If someone's actions and words are contradictory, which would you choose to believe in? What he/she said or what he/she did?

為了讓我們輕輕的離開，你願意扛上我們卸下沈重的鎖迦，獨立撐下去。這已經很了不起了。這已經是最大的愛了。你說你不想我的路那麼艱辛，所以才對我們加倍嚴謹。我懂的。

我現在最想做的只是在莫個咖啡店發呆，看看書...就這樣過一個下午。可以嗎

我很冷漠，因為你很危險

重讀之前的SMS,我發現原來我並沒有這麼冷漠。原來戀愛真的可以推動一個人，令＂噁心＂變得甜蜜。

只是我現在又回到那個冷漠的人。明明很欣賞某某，卻害怕踏前一步。在自我捆綁中...。

還記得我曾笑朋友說她想太多，這樣只會耽誤機會。現在才發現我顧慮好多，煩得要命!

These girls brighten my day !

One question

"If you have to be stuck in a place for 72 hours, where'd you rather be?

Mom (unhesitantly): supermarket!"

Mom has an unusual fascination with the supermarket, be it a small/local one or a large scale one :S

How about you?

nothing is permanent

In love with..

Mary Katrantzou!

撞鬼lor我依家極度愛floral print!

This pic is not visually pleasing but my mom made salmon head for me :) she's the best cook! ( but er she didn't pass those genes to me..)

Note 2

這年來越來越了解自己的定向， 更清楚那些事得讓步，那些事該堅持。努力完成在我能力範圍之內的工作， 不抱怨、不退縮；能減輕別人的負擔就不要猶豫的爽快的執行。儘管他惡言傷害了你，儘管對你沒有利益可言。

Note

有時候當你失去辛苦建立的東西，並不代表你能力低，或是倒霉-而是對方存心想你毀掉，逼你到絕路。有些人偏要壓迫比自己更有才華的人，以示自己的權力是能夠蓋過你的光芒。所以，你大可不必懷疑自己的能力或被頹喪擊倒。今天在那裡被跌倒，不必介懷一定要在同樣的地方爬起來。趕快在別的地方爬起來，要振作，因為你是充滿可能性的。

Ahh

I have lots to say but these racing thoughts are tangled and don't have clear ends! Pics will do!

To love or to be loved?

To love.

MilAn

We arrived Milan the fashion city yesterday! Had a good lunch at Amici, a cafe/ patisserie filled that has a long rectangular display glass/ counter. The interior design is simple and very Armani-like. I had pan fried duck breast, grilled veggies and pesto pasta! Simple goodness :)

Off to work now!

Everyone's drunk again... Lovely dinner

Florence

We arrived Florence yesterday and the food is muchhhh better than Istanbul! Went to a seafood restaurant that is by a river-with lovely view, perfect weather and good food :) I tried to resist having desserts, but their panna cotta is too nice!!

Kebabs and yogurt

So today is my last day in Istanbul, and I'll be off to Florence ( Italy) tomorrow. I've been eating a lot of kebabs nowadays and I really don't wanna see or eat them in the coming years. Not exaggerating but how could people just eat grilled lamb with a lump of yogurt everyday? Meh.

Went to the topkapi palace yesterday, where the royal family lived during the Ottomon Empire. It was grand and I love the decor- the wall is composed of busy floral patterns, yet they create an inadvertent harmony. Okay this last sentence is a bit phony I admit. But whatever.

The most fascinating part of the palace was its collection of ancient weapons. I can sense that the Turks are really violent and brutal- they have all sorts of curved daggers, blades, long swords and pistols. I wonder if the design of curved blades are to lift the opponents' bodies up when they're killed?( Kinda like 串燒? Alright I know I'm abit 變態）

Another interesting thing is that every morning and evening, there would be Muslims performing the prayer ritual. It's amazing how long he could hold his breath and how far his voice could reach. It's embarrassing sometimes because my dad would get excited when he hears it and sings along on the street(!) he also said I can record him and not disclose his identity D:

We went to a nice fine dining restaurant today which specializes in Ottomon cuisine. They used a lot of spices and herbs to prepare each dish and I especially like Baked Melon. Their melon is super sweet and the chef carved it and stuffed some couscous inside. The couscous is mixed with raisins, dried apricots, cubed chicken and garnished with a little cinnamon. I'm definitely going to try making this on my own in the states!

Today, we wanted to do a hop on and off bus tour but it wasn't with it (20 euro per person). So we walked to the Grand Bazaar and the Spice Market in hope of buying some souvenirs... But argh they are so 行。Every store sells the same stuff! But I have to say that Turkish are very good sales.. Once you eye on their products for more than 30 secs, they would start to say 'My friend!' then pull you over and ho chi ho close gum D: My dad wanted to buy some saffron, and I called 'mami' since my mom was far away.. Then the staff also yelled 'mami!!!! Come come!' (汗)

Saffron is actually a really expensive type of herbs! Three grams cost 50 lira (~HKD$215). Heard that they are real good with paella. Gonna bring some back to the states.

And Turkey is full of cats! There are all kinds of short haired cat breeds and like Turkish people, they are super friendly and approachable. They can somehow sense that I love cats too! There were three surrounding our table today and one even crawled up meowing for food! I was so busy getting bread pieces and fish tails for them without my dad noticing...

That's all for now;)

Turkey

Had a really good time in turkey;) my mom couldn't stand me when I strategically tilted my head or placed my arm when we're taking photos. Meh. Went to Haggia Sophia and the Blue Mosque today. I can only say this Turkish tourism is kinda a ripoff sometimes. Esp the 'last home of Mary' in Ephesus. As a non religious person.. I have zero fascination in Mary and having paid 13 lira ($55 hkd) to see a Brick house .. O sai jui. Sorry if I offended anyone lol.

說再見的時候

summer school 就這樣完了。朋友也飛回香港了，只剩下我在家。


明明不是明天走，但我已經很捨不得Chapel Hill了。特別是house mates...跟你們每天煮飯，看running man/鬼片、拖著重得要命的垃圾去很遠的垃圾站（卻還要我們付waste management的費用！）、看 landlord kayla的面色、一起在客廳溫finals、 然後發瘋、被逼看少女時代的MV（超毒的這個行為），甚至看龍心(!!)、不斷的互嚇對方 （這個不是我開始的...但成功嚇倒人的確很有成就感)等...

習慣獨來獨往的我，喜歡窩在房間裡，很多時都沒有分享的心態（也就是自私就對了）...跟你們一起住後，大家坦誠相對，有什麼不爽的都說出來，這樣比強忍，然後背後插對方更加好。也感謝我的house mate不斷鞭察我（特別是我煮菜的時候，他特別緊張！但這樣又令我更緊張!）

說實話：當初不確定這個三人組合是否適合長居的。但我們完全不同性格的人走在一起，能互相忍耐（特別是爭Internet的時候 XD)、抓到對方的心意、用心去聽每個人的意見而達到共識，是一種緣分。

我會好想你們

just some random shit

mandarin+ tart+raspberry x taro

got my romper! 

dinner

How to make Tamago-yaki

this chef is really cute! 

"You don't need skills to make tamago-yaki...I can fail it. You can watch me fail it. See? I can't even fold this properly. In fact, the egg is broken."

:D I'm so gonna try this tonight!

後記：

我弄到了：）

on love (2)

"跟媽媽談過同性戀的問題 我跟她說 說起同性戀的時候 請不要想是否天生 是否成長時有問題才會演變成同性戀者. 正如異性戀者不會去想自己喜歡異性是否天生 是否成長時有問題才會喜歡異性. 有沒有人問過你為什麼喜歡異性? 有沒有人問過你都還沒試過跟同性談戀愛 為什麼說定了自己只喜歡異性? 沒有. 眾生 本來平等. 我哽咽的問了她一句: 你知不知道這個世界上很多悲劇是從何而來? 我說 是因為太多人將身邊的人分為我者和他者 (The Others). 黑人遭歧視 是因為白人將他們classified as "The Others" 認為他者就是比自己低等 他們的血是被污染的 就是因為有這種看法 黑白人互相殘殺 (不明白的 請你去看看slavery literature). 男人歧視女人 是因為女人被認為是一種比男人次一級的人 所以在某些社會 女人被強暴 是視為理所當然. 恐同者亦然. 如果說愛偉大 大得可以原諒所有罪惡 那為什麼不可以大得跨過性別界限? 如果說不能 請不要跟我說愛 不要說神佛愛我 不要說要我學習神佛的愛."– quoted from facebook


很有意思吧

Let bygones be bygones

Sometimes I hoped that my memories with you were nothing but a dream or a delusion. I have struggled to convince myself that they never happened. Each time I tried to push them into the dark, they came back stronger and more vivid than ever. But they retained no sense of warmth or intimacy.

Then it struck me how distant we are now. It took us ages to get a hold of new selves that were better suited to each other. It wasn't easy for the two of us to build something out of nothing. It seemed unreal that we have gone that far and ended in nothingness.

But the pain is real. It would come without warning, and disappear just as suddenly. Those momentary flood of good times dissolve and melt before it takes full shape.

It was the torture of being unable to attain a clear view of those memories that I suffered most.

I can't find the image, I'm standing still, and I can't find the image.

too cute!

me lon

是的我這樣吃蜜瓜真的很懶但又很爽啊

蝴蝶效應

沒有人有義務要對你好

那些對你好的人，你除了要珍惜、感恩外

也要多站於別人的立場，多想關心他們，不要等別人向你求救

樂付出、少計較

每個人都是相依共存的


今日你幫他，他日你有困難，他亦必想盡辦法幫你。






明知這是一個很簡單的道理
卻還是做不到

很hea的一天

今天做了一件很久都沒有做的事--打書釘

記得小時候在Times Square的柏斯琴行學琴

隔壁就是Page One

我跟老師很聊得來，她也很愛看書

我倆常常以“看琴書”的名義在上課時偷跑去Page One看有什麼新書出

較膚淺得我那時候超喜歡林詠深的！（我大概買了她全部“消失了的..."系列吧）

然後每次上堂前最期待的就是交換小說看 (這個應該解釋了我彈鋼琴的技術D:)

講返正題

今天在Barnes & Noble待了3小時，超糾結的

太多書想買啦

同時我又不斷的在Amazon check價錢

然後發覺在書店兩本書的價錢=Amazon三本書的價錢（！）

但心想...我寧願比Barnes & Noble賺錢都好過Amazon呢D大企業賺

左擇右擇

終於買了兩本書 (Wind-up Bird Chronicle + A Brave New World)

但以下是我好想買埋ge書

Read Of Mice and Men before...but this type of demoralizing story interests me

A daughter describing how she witnessed the horror of the Cambodian genocide (Khmer Rouge)

Personal account by survivor of the Holocaust


Funny (but random) findings:

最後在Weaver Street Market外面讀了幾小時

帶這本書回香港爸爸應該會罵...因為對他來說這個作者又random又無教育意義又佔空間

超hea但我很想每天都是這樣子過啊

連媽媽都disapprove